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Everyday I like to look at the burgeoning statistics of this site. X no. of visitors. Y no. of visitors. Then, I get a little angry on seeing blogs with higher no. of visits than mine. But I look at the content of their’s too and conclude ‘Wow!’. But, although these nos. do give me a sense of achievement, its a certainty that if I continue to look at nos. in this way, I am never going to be satisfied.

But walking through the welcoming coridors of life in fresh youthfulness, what else can I do? I have to think in terms of numbers, competition, fights and peaks. I am not trying some new tactic of underlining how life’s actions and achievements are worthless. They are not. But we have little time to execute and become all we want to. As life surely metamorphoses into nothingness with death (till an alternative to that is found).

Although this is at the back of everyone’s mind, the truth is most of us live squandering time as if we are going to live forever. We waste time being bored, being not in the mood, being angry, being sad, being scared, sleeping and I don’t know myriads of ways to prevent ourselves from achieving resplendent glory.

This stark revelation, which often plays on everybody’s mental screens but few care to let it last, came to me when I went to meet my sister, a Doctorate student who had come to Ahmedabad to collect information on living conditions of widows in the state. We were at an Old Age Home where I saw hoardes of people – who in mildest terms were old.

Not that this is something unusual. Well, everyone gets old. The truth is I found wide variety of attitudes in people. Most women smiled a lot, were always eager to answer and talk and seemed completely floating through life and its joys. Men too were in a jolly mood but there were few who just sat infront of the television screen (a mammoth 50″ screen) listlessly watching a cricket match. Their fragileness shook me and made me rethink my lifestyle.

I looked at my pattern of living, how I just waited for the good time to come and then complained about not having time, how I did nothing for hours but surf online and then complained of how busy I was, how I don’t do my assignments on time (well, that depends on what you deem important in life. Atleast in college, assignments are the least obliging) and then complained how time-wasting they are and the list is endless. I bet so is your list.

A shimmering moon looks down from my window with her faintly dizzy light and I beckon that soul within me which has all the potential to rise up again. My dear friend, why don’t you just nudge yourself a bit? Its not difficult to ensure that the evening of your life is the most glorious time – no matter when you encounter it. Family, Relationships, Ideals, Dreams, Goals and a Purpose of life – why not embrace them completely?

Siddhartha